LYRICS

01. UNDERNEATH (feat. Joe Stump)

 

You just wanted to get ahead in these troubled times

A small price for your betterment, pay no mind

We just wanted a place to sleep, to eat, and shelter

Fuck us over for your own gain

Throw us underneath

 

All we wanted was happiness, to be loved

Crushed by life with no end in sight nor above

Thrown underneath again and left there to die

 

Human life is not of worth in the eyes of sociopaths

Why must I lie, fight, or die for them to abuse?

 

I won’t be used again

I’m a slave to no one

All that think that they’ve played me are the pawns in my game

 

No more puppetry, cut the strings

Retaliate against those I hate, until that day I wait

From the underneath

 

Human life is not of worth in the eyes of sociopaths

Why must I lie, fight, or die for them?

I won’t lie, fight, or die for them to abuse

Not anymore

 

 

 

02. HUMANITY

 

Look at all these people doing their best to feel alive

Flushing money into good times all the while they are scraping by

I don’t blame them, but I’m not them

They numb the pain with excess but this cycle is relentless

The race is rigged but these people don’t care

They love the nightclubs, hotel rooms and thin air

In the end, I’m not so different, we’re all just dying inside

But I’ve already died

 

Some take photos, helps look like they belong

Buy a drink and strike up conversation

Dance with strangers, make new friends hope they stay

Fight existential decay

People just want bright lights, a good fuck, loud music, faded vision

Give them that, problems go away

Fucking planet’s dying, might as well just enjoy today

But I loathe this game

 

There’s too many bodies in here, and yet no one is here at all

At the heart of man is a void, if it isn’t filled, life it destroys

Sociophobia takes its toll

Devastates, isolates my mind above all

 

(You’re not human, and you will never be)

 

Why do I look at all these people doing their best to feel alive?

Flushing money into good times all the while they are scraping by

I don’t blame them, but I’m not them

I’m not like them, I am not them

Keep up the charade, smile and laugh like I’m alive

Ask myself why I’m not at home where I might suffer alone

Why is everybody vacant?

Where is everyone’s humanity?

  

03. ALONE

 

You haunt my sleep from time to time

Haunt my memories but I want mine all for myself

So please stay away from me

I’m not sure I could bear to lose you

Stay out of my head

 

And though people act like they love you, they never do

Now go and know there’s no one there for you

Where do we go? And no, there’s no one there but you

 

So please stay away from me

I’m not sure I could bear to lose you all over again

 

And so, though you act like you love them, it’s never true

Now go and know there’s no one there for you

Where do we go? And no, there’s no one there but you

 

No trust, I must bring my own

Trust that I deserve love

 

And now I am alone

No more suffering

I exist for my own needs

 

 

 

04. AWAKEN THE BEAST

 

They say I don’t deserve to be here in a drunken rage

I never asked to be near this constant hate that I face

Condemned for wearing skin darker, not what lies within

They say I don’t deserve to be here, that I should leave this place

I never asked to be here, this constant fate that I hate

Condemned for speaking my native tongue among them

And my own don’t understand what I feel

 

I exist in the in-between of worlds all alone

They don’t know what I am, just that I am not one of them

And my own will never know, how I suffer silently

I am never at home, even amongst my own

As far back as I can recall I’ve felt the very sight of me

Awakens the beast

 

They refuse to shake my hand for the way I dress

As though through that they understand that I am worth less

Their eyes, they violate I and those with me

They refuse to accept my service for the way I appear

As though it would make the others nervous just by having me near

Their eyes, discriminate I and those like me

And my own don’t understand what I feel

 

I exist in the in-between of worlds all alone

They don’t know what I am, just that I am not one of them

And my own will never know, how I suffer silently

I am never at home, even amongst my own

As far back as I can recall I’ve known the very sight of me

Awakens the beast 

 

 

05. WHITE WOLF

 

Ripped back into another fucking nightmare

Awake paralysis grinds my mind into despair

I keep on wishing that life were just a nightmare

I don’t think that I can bear this anymore

Driven insane by the boredoms and frustrations of my daily half-life

 

My path, at times it obfuscates, yet I know what I must do

Escape the oppressive prison state of this untrue existence

I’m told there’s two wolves in us, he who feeds must let the right one out

My path, at times it obfuscates, yet I know what I must do

Escape the oppressive prison state of this untrue existence

 

My slumber is wracked by mirage; a world that’s fairer

I rather that than the illusion of mortal terror

Give me respite from the tortures and frustrations of my daily half-life

 

My path, at times it obfuscates, yet I know what I must do

Escape the oppressive prison state of this untrue existence

 

In dreams I am awake, indeed, nothing’s at stake

We will never make that mistake, there’s nothing else

The white wolf is but a myth, for to console those in crisis

This mind of mine knows not this bliss, just drifting into the abyss

 

And I am told there’s two wolves in us, he who feeds must let the right one out

My path, at times it obfuscates, yet I know what I must do

Escape the oppressive prison state of this untrue existence

 

Ripped back into another fucking nightmare

Awake paralysis grinds my mind into despair

I keep on wishing that life were just a nightmare

I can’t take it anymore

 

 

 

 

06. TOXIN

 

Three shots in the back. The killer white, in blue, the young victim black

The fucking pig was acquitted, what kind of god could justify that?

And fifty dead in the mosques, a different way but to the same god they pray

The perpetrator was sick, white-power politicians pull the same trick

There’s too many tragedies to mourn, and when they pass, what am I supposed to do?

 

And where the fuck is god in these times? There is no law, they get away with these crimes

These awful things happen to those who deserve better and nobody cares

What am I supposed to do in these times? I know the problem, but a way I can’t find

Upset with myself for not knowing how to respond to these agonies

There’s too many tragedies to mourn, what can I do but shut myself in?

 

I’m not absolved, there’s too much hate

This toxin must evaporate

There’s too many tragedies to mourn, am I complicit? Am I selfish? What am I supposed to do?

 

Where the fuck is god while they pray? Fake benevolent groups profit from this day

Espousing kindness, turn their backs on all other plight and nobody knows

What am I supposed to do, think, or say? I have no answers; I stay out of the way

Beside myself for what seems like an eternity while I melt away

There’s too many tragedies to mourn, what can I do but shut myself in?

 

I’m not absolved, there’s too much hate

This toxin must evaporate

There’s too many tragedies to mourn, this world is filled with toxin

 

I’m not absolved, there’s too much hate

This toxin must evaporate

There’s too many tragedies to mourn, am I complicit? Am I selfish? What am I supposed to do?

 

Toxin; what am I supposed to do?

  

 

07. PITCH-BLACK

 

My psyche’s snapped, from wounds too deep to dress and wrap

I’ve lost my mind to abuse

 

This war-torn mind is vacant

No one will get inside, no one, I do not mind

There are no more ways to hurt me

No one will ever find me in this pitch-black empty room

All hail our lord and savior solitude

 

My memories keep on fading as dementia wipes out my life

 

This war-torn mind is vacant

No one will get inside, no one, I do not mind

There are no more ways to hurt me

No one will ever find me in this pitch-black empty room

All hail our lord and savior solitude

 

A silent, unseen metamorphosis; I am not who they think I am

This shell is cold, an empty husk free from the illusions of pain and joy

There’s pitch-black in me

 

This war-torn mind is vacant

There are no more ways to hurt me

No one will ever find me

All hail our lord and savior solitude

 

This war-torn mind is vacant

No one will get inside, no one, I do not mind

There are no more ways to hurt me

No one will ever find me in this pitch-black empty room

All hail our lord and savior solitude

  

 

08. THIS DARKNESS FEELS ALIVE

 

I was once a man, now I am nothing at all

When the lights go out on me, I can hear them call

 

I’ve done my best to keep this fire from going out

And yet I know just how this game will end without a doubt

The shadows encroaching now, they seal my fate, suffer devout

Extinguishing flame, they call my name yet do not shout

I’m drawn to death in shame, I do not care, not anymore

I can’t escape this pain, tendrils ensnare, this darkness feels alive

 

I don’t know why I feel so sick or why lethargy rots me

My carnal instincts terminate and this carcass loses weight

 

Erosion of the will

Loved ones say they worry still

I do not care, I burn away

 

I was once a man, now I am nothing at all

When the sun has set on me, I can hear them call

 

I’ve done my best to keep this fire from going out

And yet I know just how this game will end without a doubt

The shadows encroaching now, they seal my fate, suffer devout

Extinguishing flame, they call my name yet do not shout

I’m drawn to death in shame, I do not care, not anymore

I can’t escape this pain, tendrils ensnare, this darkness feels alive

 

This darkness feels alive

 

  

09. ARAUCARIA [Instrumental]

 

 

10. MADE MANIFEST (feat. Awká Mondaka)

 

No love

No stability

No sleep at night

No sympathy

 

All the things that you have lost make your life no less replete, you will never forget how it felt

It will always be a part of you, the lifetime that you’ve lost

It was never really gone, it just lost its form

 

No compromise

No complacency

No self-pity

 

Know that you are still whole, tempered and reconfigured,

they soothe us with sweet lies of light at the end

Your tenebrosity will save you, the way it slowly burns gives you time to accept the truth

After all else is lost you are still here

 

All this pain will not be for naught, what it made is stronger than you thought you’d be

This pain will not be for naught, what it made shall remain forever

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[Awká]

Fill tüfachi kutxanpüzalayay

Fey ñi zeumayeael ta zoy newen rakizuamafuy mew

Tüfachi kutranpüzalayay

Fey ñi zeumayeael müleay ta rumel mew

 

Tüfachi kutxan

Tüfachi kutxanpüzalayay

Fey ñi zeumayeael ta wefuay mew

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No fear

No regrets

No one else

Just me

 

Here we are at the end and yet nothing has changed, a snapped mind that has mended yet same circumstance

We will not be a victim, not now nor evermore

Reach out for retribution and take it by force

 

All this pain will not be for naught, what it made is stronger than you thought you’d be

This pain will not be for naught, what it made shall be made manifest

 

Made manifest